What If Your Compulsive Thoughts Are Making You Suicidal?
OCD symptoms can be very overwhelming, especially intrusive thoughts which seem to come out of nowhere and keep going around your mind. Sometimes, these intrusive thoughts can be so distressing that they lead you to feel that there is no way out. If your OCD symptoms are making you feel suicidal, it's important to know that there is help available.
Check Your OCD MedicationIf you're currently taking OCD medication, it may be that you need to switch to something different. Some types of OCD medication can encourage suicidal thoughts so it's worth bringing up the subject with your doctor to see if this might be a big factor, especially if you've been living with OCD for some time and have never previously experienced suicidal thoughts. Some SSRI antidepressants are thought to contribute to suicidal thoughts, although there isn't any strong evidence to prove this.
Getting SupportAs intrusive thoughts are not always acted upon, it doesn't necessarily mean that you've got the intention to do anything drastic but because they are so scary, it's understandable that you'd worry about carrying out suicidal thoughts. If your intrusive thoughts are making you feel suicidal, it's best to get some support as soon as possible. Organisations like The Samaritans will listen to you without passing judgement if you call their phone line and speak to one of their trained call operators and it can also help to communicate with other OCD sufferers to help you feel less isolated and overwhelmed.
Getting TreatmentIf you're experiencing high levels of anxiety alongside your OCD symptoms, it may be that the thought of suicide is becoming (or has already become) an obsession as an escape route. On top of this, your unconscious mind may be worried that suicide will become an obsessional intrusive thought. Because the very nature of OCD means that thoughts are seized upon and analysed in great detail, suicidal thoughts may become an obsession even though the initial thought only popped up once. Whereas someone who doesn't suffer from OCD would probably dismiss the thought, this tends not to happen for OCD sufferers.
To help you manage your thoughts, it's a good idea to see a mental health professional. Your GP should be able to refer you to the most appropriate form of treatment and support. While you may never act on suicidal thoughts or ever have the intention of doing so, this kind of intrusive thoughts is likely to make you extremely anxious, which can then make your existing OCD symptoms worse and create a vicious circle.